Last month I posted a little rant after R (he whose penis rejected me) contacted me out of the blue. He wanted to know if I could help him get in touch with my friend who he fucked senseless (instead of me) at a swingers party we took him to. Well, I didn’t take too kindly to that so I politely but firmly told him to find alternate pussy. I haven’t heard from him since.
Hand on heart, I did not have any serious feelings for R but it’s still a sore point that we didn’t connect sexually as much as we thought we would have. Our much longed-for coming together was supposed to be my amazing experience. It should have been me who he thought of hooking up with again. Me, I tell you!
Dare I say it… I am a wee bit possessive. Not in a scary, Fatal Attraction kinda way though so don’t be scared. I’m more like a petulant little girl who doesn’t want anyone else to play with her toys. Even if she has many toys, they are all hers. R was my toy but since I didn’t know how to make him work, I didn’t mind my friend playing with him just the once. Just the once though, dammit!
So there we have it. I am a shared wife who does not like to share her play friends. I don’t necessarily think I’m unusual in my tendency though, and it’s more a situational possessiveness. Future Bulls need not be concerned! I’m well aware that all my regular play friends are fucking the brains out of other women and to be honest, I would be more worried if they weren’t. What I don’t like is not being the centre of attention during my playtime.
Great. So I’m a possessive narcissist now? Possibly, but that’s kinda what I’m in the Hotwifing game for. My husband wants to watch me being desired and devoured by other men. We would go to a swingers party if we wanted to mix things up and be more sharing. I adore being the only woman in the room and sexually worshiped accordingly. So much so that I won’t participate in gangbangs unless it’s a one-pussy show. That’s not why I hijacked this gangbang though 😅
To be honest, I’m not wild about sharing my contacts either as it can be hard finding decent single guys sometimes. Occasionally I get asked by swinging friends if I could recommend a single guy to them which raises my hackles. Find your own fucking men! Sharing may be caring, but when it comes to good cock, I don’t care to share. The last thing I need is not being able to get the cock I want, when I want, because I pimped it out to too much!
So that’s me in a nut shell: a shared wife, but not a sharing wife. But what about my husband, you ask? Curiously, I’m not possessive when it comes to my Stag having fun with other women. I actually love that he has his own playtime. He’s always attentive towards me so I never feel left out or abandoned if he chooses to pursue a play friend. As long as he and I have our own special moments, I am a very happy wife.